I lost another friend

You've done well so far.

Keep it up.

Please.

 

Oops. I didn’t mean it THAT way.

 

I will admit, if I knew I'd succeed, I probably would end it all.

The next few years are going to get kind of bumpy and I doubt it will get better after this.

 

Swallow it down
the jagged little pill
it feels so good
swimming in
your stomach

 

I got into an argument with one of my brothers today. We're paying the condo fees and utilities out of my mom's estate, which is a finite amount. Eventually, it will run out. He said I'm holding up them selling it. I haven't even looked for another place to live because I have yet to find a job that will pay enough.

 

Can't wait for when you and the bro argue about homosexuality.

 

I'm still around. Not much has changed, but I'm still around and still trying.

That is all.

 

Positive change has the turning radius of a battleship. Be patient with yourself and keep up the good work.

 

That is excellent advice.

 

Two new developments. It may not be as bleak as I thought.

First, a few weeks ago, I called a friend who is a realtor, asking for some advice about what to do with my mom's condo and also about finding a place for me to live. She connected me with a lender. Nothing is set in stone, but even with as little as I'm making, I could get enough for a one-bedroom condo somewhere in the state.
But I'm going to see if I can't increase my income in the next few months,

Second, I have an interview for a content specialist position on Monday. I did a phone interview with the company shortly after Christmas. They said they'd get back to me within a week. When a month passed without any word, I figured it was a lost cause. Today, they emailed me, asking if I could come in for an interview.

I don't want to get my hopes up, but this may actually turn out OK.