But if there can be a certain romanticism over sports writing — and over the most successful sportswriters — Reilly said there was also a toll.
"Every one of those stories took a year off your life," he said. "They'd give you five, six weeks for a story but it better be the best damn story you ever wrote. Gary Smith [another SI writer] and I used to talk about it. You'd be up all night, you'd hear the characters in your head, you couldn't talk to your family."
The deadline pressure could be so intense that his nerves gave Reilly severe stomach pains, putting him in the hospital twice. "I had to go to therapy before I learned I could breathe through the panic attacks and realize that I was good enough to be at the magazine," he said.
To me, this is one of the most honest things ever written about longform feature writing. Kudos to anyone who could do it and treat it just like a job. I've been there on the stomach stuff (not in the hospital, but unable to sleep because of pain caused by a story), and it's misery.
Reilly won by every metic. Debates about "legacy" are generally dumb. He understood the darkness of subjects in ways that very few feature writers did, but that almost wrecked him, and so he wrote a great column for nearly a decade and then he ran out of stuff to say. It's ok. It happens. Simmons ran out of stuff to say as well, but he was able to pivot to podcasts. That saved him from a similar fate. Anyone who says "Just shut up and go back to doing what you were good at, writing stories" has probably never written several hundred of those stories.